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IT’S THERE

Funny thing is

I don’t know what it is

It rounds the edges sort of

Curves the outcome of

Sharp delineations sudden endings

Questions asking for things

They just slide off and never happen

Blocked I can’t get anything out

In time and well everything changes

Comes to an end the opportunity

Will never come again

At least not in that way

And if it does whatever it is

Will curve me away again

There’s a point where if you act

It will change everything

This keeps me from having

Too many of those

I like to keep my options open

That’s the thought at least

If I make the move I can’t

Take it back not ever

It may be a prescient

Whatever it is knowing

Not fear at all though I’ve

Plenty of that

It’s different just hovering

In the background when

The changer comes it moves

Forward altering the possibilities

Making the whole thing pointless

Injecting doubt all the what if’s

And turning them into

Becauses and I’m glads

It never happened leaving behind

Only wonder fantasy

More than that though

It really almost happened

But it didn’t let it

There is no word for it

Or sound feeling

Just there

Book series - Anxiety is not Depression ‘Bring Order to the Chaos’, ‘Daily Reader’, ‘Questions and Answers’. The view from the inside about these disorders.